My Immortal Soul

Classes start monday… ugh! I’m so not ready!!! All serious classes! No fun.

MWF-Math 3o, English 102, History 102
T-Biology 101, General Psycholgy
TH-Biology 101, General Psycholgy, Biology Lab

My room mate is AMAZING!!!! Lol. Its what i get for rooming with my Bestie. Hopefully we dont kill each other.

Ian’s here!!!! I’m balancing time between friends and him well so far but we’ll see when school starts.  I feel like i’m ignoring him more than my friends which was a totally opposite of how i was thinking.

Hope this year goes well. Wish me luck?

*_* Angel Aura

Purity means being clean  and free of guilt or evil. Often times purity is seen in a sexual matter, being pure means being a virgin, wearing all white and being used as a sacrifice.  Now i know that’s an extreme view of being pure but sometimes its seen as that. To me, being pure can mean making a mistake and stepping back to change it. Being pure can mean losing ones virginity but changing there ways to become a reborn virgin and save whats left of there purity for marriage. To wash the soil off white clothes, wear them proudly as newly re-whitened and ask God for forgiveness for the mistake you’ve made.  I pray to God for forgiveness for the mistake i have made and deep in my heart i know he accepts it.

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Every time i try to do something right i do it wrong, everytime i get exceited about something good in my life someone gets mad me, everytime i try to help someone out i apparently screw things up worse… do i give up or keep on going?

*_* Angel Aura

It should seriously be against the law to make kids clean over spring break. I wanna sleep all day and be lazy and all that jazz, BUT NO!!!! I have to clean the house. Ugh. I havent even gotten started on my homework i have due after break. I really need to get on that but i’m too busy cleaning!

It’s really hot in my room, which makes cleaning worse.

I quit.

*_* Angel Aura

This aint a fairy tale
I’m not the one you sweep off her feet
lead her up the stair well
this aint Hollywood
this is a small town
i was a dreamer before you
and you let me down…
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse
to catch me now”

I know it’s been over a year since me and Tony broke up and I’ve happily been with Ian for nearly 10 months… but i just now think I’m over Tony.

I was driving home from Joplin for Spring break on Thursday night and suddenly i was uncontrollably crying, my body shaking and my eyes blurry. For some dumb reason i started speeding up and screaming. My mind racing of thoughts about how Tony hurt me and caused me so much pain and so much drama. How i think like Tony caused my mental issues and how made all kinds of promises which he never planned to keep. How i stupidly  follow him around like a sad sick puppy and put myself in harms way millions of times over. How he broke my heart to “protect me” but never cared enough to cut off the close ties that held me to him. Never thought that the appeal of being with him again was so over whelming that i was willing to leave Ian just to feel the way i did with him. He mentally threw me around like a ragdoll and played so many mind games that i don’t know if i will ever be ok again.

One year, two months and eleven days later… i think I’m finally over Tony.

I love Ian with all my heart. I seriously don’t think i could live without him anymore. He’s become such a big part of my life that i never wanna lose. I’ve never felt this way about anyone. Not even Tony. It scares me to think that I’m 19 and willing to give myself fully to one man forever, but I am.  He bought me a “couples ring” with our names and birthstones on it. I cried when we ordered it together.

It feels like i have a major weight lifted off my chest and i can finally breathe again. I no longer feel lost and confused about what’s going on between me and Tony. We’re only friends… i maybe losing a best friend but at least i have someone who loves me and is willing to take care of me forever.

*_* Angel Aura

Warner Bros. president of production Jeff Robinov hopes a third film will be released in 2011. Nolan is not committed to another sequel, explaining that he does not normally line up projects after completing a film, noting “Is there a story that’s going to keep me emotionally invested for the couple of years that it will take to make another one? That’s the overriding question. On a more superficial level, I have to ask the question: How many good third movies in a franchise can people name?” He added the only reason he would return would be if he found a necessary way to continue the story, but he feared midway through filming another installment he would find it redundant. Nolan had written a rough story outline and made some notes by December 2008, despite his uncertainty in returning for the sequel. Later in December, Alan F. Horn confirmed that while discussions with Nolan about a third film were ongoing, no casting had been done, and Horn categorically denied all such rumors.

Gary Oldman is confident Nolan will return,and Bale said he would return if Nolan did.Oldman hinted in the third film Gordon would have to “hunt down Batman”. He has also speculated that the villain of the upcoming film might be the Riddler. Nolan explained that as long as he is directing, he is not including Robin in the franchise because Bale is still portraying a “young Batman”, which meant “Robin’s not for a few films”. In addition, Nolan considers the Penguin difficult to portray on film, explaining, “There are certain characters that are easier to mesh with the more real take on Batman we’re doing. The Penguin would be tricky.”

Kate Beckinsale has expressed interest in playing Catwoman,while rumors are spreading that Angelina Jolie is reported to be Catwoman. Julie Newmar, who played Catwoman in the Batman series from 1966 to 1967, said “Angelina would own the part.” David Tennant and Brian Austin Green wish to portray the Riddler.^[94][95] Aaron Eckhart had expressed his enthusiasm that he would reprise his role for a sequel if asked, although he later confirmed that, in talks with Nolan before Heath Ledger’s death, the director considers Two-Face to be dead. Michael Caine commented that a studio executive was interested in casting Johnny Depp as the Riddler, and Phillip Seymour Hoffman as the Penguin.Hoffman later denied the rumor.

So it’s like 1:45am… im sitting awake, my legs restless and my mind racing. Its not that i wanna be awake, trust me i wish i was alseep… but my body has gotten so used to college schedual where i slept for maybe 4 hours, went to class then took a nap and was good.

UGH… i wanna be alseep, i wanna be out with my friends, i wanna be doing something besides sitting here!!! I havent left my house since Satutday and my car is “grounded” cause the weather is bad… *screams* i wanna get out of the house… even if it’s just to drive around for a few mins or go get a happy meal from McDonalds. I need to get out!!!

Another thing… i’m use to doing what i want, when i want, no matter the time… BUT NO.. im home with a midnight curfew and it kills me. I got spoiled by not having a mommy and daddy telling me to stay in at 2am when i want pancakes.

Another thing.. i miss my college friends… and my high school friends… but that leads back to not being able to go anywhere. Ugh

So an ex of mine and his girlfriend broke up and i was all kinds of excited cause i didnt like her… but when i talked to them about it they both seemed way too cool about it and that makes me feel awkward because i know break ups suck no matter how long it lasts. So why are they both so ok with it?

Maybe i’m just psycho and over emotional… i think i need more pills, maybe that’ll answer it all. But maybe the pills are what are causeing all this. Take one pill to stop this but it starts this so you take 2 pills to control things but then another thing happens so you just keep going til you’re spending more on pills than you did your your car. Hmmm… i wish i could stop taking my pills but then i’d go crazier.

The orignal point to this rant was i cant sleep… so got way off topic.

*_* Angel Aura