For a spoiled, over protected 18 yr old girl from a decently small town, college is going to be an experience of a life time. I’ve not even been at college barely even a week and already i feel a strong sense of freedom rush through my veins. This decently small town with it’s hundreds of fast food restaurants and huge malls with a massive campus hidden among the trees is the starting of a brand new life and a brand new world. Very few people know my past, some people down here are my past and present, and back home is my part of my future. It’s been hard adjusting to using public bathrooms and showers, having someone i barely know be sleeping and living within confined quarters with me and having to realize Mommy, Daddy, Big sissy and the Love of my life aren’t right here with me. In all reality I’m scared to death of being here, so far away from the comforts of my own home and the safe feeling of consistency of the everyday events back home. I’m trying to step in this new world without a fear or care at all, but my mind can only fool me for so long before reality will bust down my door and kick my sorry lying ass.

I know all this experience of being “on my own” and meeting new people is going to better me in the long run and make me a stronger person, but this spoiled, over protected, 18 yr old wishes she had her mommy and daddy with her to tell her everything is going to be alright. That the worsening depression is just a momentary thing and will soon fade away. That she can do this and be strong without them holding her hand. But as Mommy and Daddy are 2 hrs away from there fair baby girl. it appears that she’s gonna have to enter a brave new world all on her own.

*-*Angel Aura