Maybe it’s just me… but it seems like jealousy was a major issue not even 6 months ago and now it pisses me off when people get jealous. I know i had a lot of problems with not trusting anyone and being suspecious of everyone, but now as i start to not have as much drama with jealousy and trust more people, it seems to occur that i’m causing people to have jealousy issues by my normal behaviors and that I’m some kind of fucktard for trusting people with important things.

I’d like to think i’m growing up and maturing by learning to trust and not freak out over jealousy, but apperently it’s immature to be an adult and not suspect the worst in people all the time. Sounds back assward right? It’s because that logic makes no since… that growing up is apparently the wrong thing to do, i should permenantly stay as a a teenager and never get past high school issues, i should always through hissy fits and hold my breathe til i get my way, apparently reverting back to childish behaviors is the “mature” thing to do these days *sighs*

I think i’d rather keep growing up then push away important people in my life by being jealous all the time and having little to no trust in those who surround me daily.

*-* Angel Aura