I was sitting in my room, rewriting some note of mine when i suddenly freaked out and got majorly anixous.

i felt like the room was closing in on my and i could barely breathe… i just wanted to run.

SO i threw on some baggy clothes and went to the SLC to run…

I biked and ran and did leg presses and calf raises and crunches… then my meds kicked in and i was ok-ish again, but as i went to get up from doing crunches i nearly passed out

The room was spinning and i fell to my knees… i could barely breathe again. Luckily no one saw me so i was able to stand up after a min and get out of there.

I walked back to my dorm with weak knees and shaking hands, barely able to make it up the stairs and into my dorm room. I was able to get into my room and get my door shut and make it to my bed before my knees finally gave out. Luckily i was already sitting down or it would have been hard to get onto my bed.

I know i should have just taken my meds and sat outside for a min… but i needed to move… but moving caused me to nearly have more issues if anyone had seen me fall.

I need to get to the doctor but i hate feeling like a drugged up doll like i already do.

*le sigh* i need to find a new way to relax